Let me just start off this post by saying that Sophia needs a spanking already. She did not cooperate with the game plan/time line we were going by. I'm just kidding.
I am going to take it from the top. Off we go...
Wednesday evening I am walking around Target with my Mom. It had been a normal day, nothing had felt off or anything. All of the sudden I felt a little "moisture". Mt first thought was "Holy crow did I just pee on myself?!?". It wasn't much fluid, so I decided that I would finish what I was doing and head home. A little while later I am loading my groceries into the car and I felt, again, what I thought was pee. This time I told my Mom and she confirmed what I was afraid of, that I had probably just peed on myself. Awesome, thanks Sophia for making Mommy need diapers! I get home, go to the bathroom and realize that it does not look or smell like pee. But hey, what do I know. I clean up and head to the kitchen to unload my groceries. A bigger gush of fluid comes out. At this point I inform Matthew that "I'm leaking" and I call the dr. My doctor tells me, again, that it is probably just pee but just to be safe why don't you come on in and we'll check. It is after 9pm at this point so off to the hospital we go. Before we leave Matt asks "do you need to take anything?". "No" says I, "We will only be there a few hours". HAHAHA, little did I know! I will wrap this part up by saying that by then time the Dr sees me I am gushing and am immediately informed that I will not be leaving the hospital until my baby has been delivered because my water is in fact broken. Talk about being hit with a dose of reality. My water broke at 32weeks and 3 days. That is 7 weeks and 4 days too soon. My tiny little baby girl is not ready to be in this big bad world. I am not ready to share her yet. She is supposed to be mine for AT LEAST another 5-6 weeks. I am terrified. All I can think is that it's too soon and she is not ready. I am not ready. The nursery is not ready. They gave me medication to stop my labor and some to help Sophia's lungs mature faster. The first night was tough. Tough on me, tough on Matt. I am glad it is past us...
Fast forward to today and I have been in bed for 9 days. 9...long...days. With the exception of yesterday, which was really rough, I have been pretty good. I think I have been in as good a mood as you can be. Sophia has done beautifully with her movements size/weight gain and heart rate. She looks perfect and the Drs do not think she will have to spend much time in the NICU, Thank God! I am being induced on Monday morning, so our little girls birthday will be, hopefully, 11/21/11. The funny thing about that date is that I have thought for a while now, several weeks at least, that her birthday would be the 21st. I just thought it would be of December and not November.
I am VERY nervous about being induced. Originally I had wanted a natural birth. No drugs, no pain meds or piton. Just Matthew, myself, hot showers, a birthing ball and lots of walking. Instead I will be hooked up to pit and other ivs I'm sure, not allowed to shower or probably walk and praying that my body decides to react to the drugs quickly and that I don't spend 36 hours in labor. Awesome!
I am also incredibly excited and yet terrified to have her here. I wonder if I will be a good Mommy and if I'll be able to meet all of her needs. If I will be able to find the balance between loving and firm. God is giving us this precious gift that is also a HUGE responsibility and I just don't want to mess it up or let Him or her down.
Ok, the last ting I would like to include I. This never ending post is an enormous THANK YOU to all of the friends and family who have been so loving and supportive during this time. All of the prayers, phone calls, visits, Facebook messages and gifts have been so very appreciated. We are blessed to have such wonderful people in our lives,a and I know Sophia's life will be blessed because of you too. So Thank You!
A crazy beautiful chapter in our life and marriage is about to begin. Check back for updates and pictures soon my friends as Sophia Elizabeth Sharpstene makes her grand entrance into this lovely little world!
